Depression.

maybe stop being a shitty person?

>2x2 always equates to 1

P1641
Be the change you want to see.

cool thread, mind if i contribute?
i have been sleeping 12 hours daily lately

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>mind if i contribute?
Sure.
>i have been sleeping 12 hours daily lately
Sounds comfy.

your glags singing are cute, but what about glabs?

>>1775
WTF is that 11.2 MiB file?

oops, .mkv isnt recognized
let me try again with a webm

>Sounds comfy.
rather sleep than stay awake

P1775
>what about glabs
They're QT AF, obviously.

Downloading a 15 MB file through Tor certainly does take a while.

>oops, .mkv isnt recognized
but why? it's like 15 years old lol

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P4552
I can't believe people even watch the shit I post in here.

You can feel this song going around your ears if you listen in earphones.

P4554
Lambanon, that video is a hot garbage. You want me to post a garbage truck below?

P4554
why is there a huge pulsating nipple on the video?

Exercise on a bi-weekly schedule and keep a journal, these two are the antidotes to depression.

P5253
>bi-weekly
more like bi-daily
t. just came back from my morning jog

>just came back from my morning jog
nice dox

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more like bi-curious! lmao gotten!

have you ever heard of traumacore?
it gives me weird soul chilling vibes, but idk i think i like it
its strangely comforting okay not exactly but idk how else to describe
uhhh relatable ig?
[spoiler: the ending of this video in contrast with the rest of it always makes me wheeze, its hard for me not to assume it was put there as a joke to relieve tension]

P6533
Heard of it.
>NOBODY GIVES A SHIT UNTIL I DIE
I know where that's from.
>like, share, subscribe and click the bell icon

No one never listens
This wallpaper glistens
Don't let them see what goes down in the kitchen

Places, places
Get in your places
Throw on your dress and put on your doll faces
Everyone thinks that we're perfect
Please don't let them look through the curtains
Picture, picture, smile for the picture
Pose with your brother, won't you be a good sister?
Everyone thinks that we're perfect
Please don't let them look through the curtains
D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E
I see things that nobody else sees
D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E
I see things that nobody else sees

You guys know if you are on the COINTEL shitlist or you end up in a psychward for suicide and show any kind of dissent for the government they'll put you on a mega dose of anti-psychotics that make it so you can't make rational decisions or even read correctly, use sleep deprivation on you to try to trigger a psychotic episode all while holding you indefinitely using a government plant in charge of the hospital?

That's one way the USA disposes of political dissenters. Operation Vigilant Eagle arrested over one and a half million Americans and threw them in psych wards to be gotten rid of this way for opposing the 9/11 narrative and Israel's war in Iraq using the captive USA government.

The anti-psychotics have the withdrawal symptom of psychosis, along with debilitating permanent withdrawal reactions like tardive dyskinesia. Meaning, if they can hold you because the sleep deprivation until you have become physiologically dependent on the anti-psychotics, then they will eventually declare you mentally unfit and have court mandated prescription of the anti-psychotics which are merely are a chemical lobotomy.

It just takes one Israeli spy to put you on the COINTEL list and one suicide attempt or self check in for depression and some Fed plants will destroy your life forever because you're political opposition.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Operation_Vigilant_Eagle

Remember that these people are still in law enforcement and in the medical industry when Trump get's re-elected because if you can't get rid of them, they'll get rid of you. If you don't clear these people out, get their names through the intelligence agencies and throw them all in Federal prison or blacksites, they'll just quitely dispose of your political group. And they target Leftists too, anyone that opposes the Federal *****/drug dealer/free money regime.

>In certain cases targets have been labeled as mentally ill with "oppositional-defiance disorder", and more cases show that veterans are being targeted since the beginning of Operation Vigilant Eagle[3] and the cause could be as simple as posting controversial song lyrics and political views on Facebook.[3]

>The condition is just a description of the general behavior of anyone that recognizes the government is lying, harming people, and wants revenge on them. If you don't accept the authority of a regime that no one actually elected, they say it's a debilitating mental illness. Which is why we have to execute every doctor that has ever made this diagnosis along with all their descendants and every medical publication that participated in legitimizing this fake condition. They have to pay with their lives and their family's futures, since they took so many good people's lives and that will never change because they picked a fight with the entire Western nation, they're a *****ing military target for running their soft power campaign against us.

A. A pattern of angry/irritable mood, argumentative/defiant behavior, or vindictiveness lasting at least 6 months as evidenced by at least four symptoms of the following categories, and exhibited during interaction with at least one individual who is not a sibling:
Angry/Irritable Mood

1.

Often loses temper
2.

Is often touchy or easily annoyed
3.

Is often angry and resentful

Argumentative/Defiant Behavior

4.

Often argues with authority figures or, for *****ren and adolescents, with adults
5.

Often actively defies or refuses to comply with requests from authority figures or with rules
6.

Often deliberately annoys others
7.

Often blames others for his or her mistakes or misbehavior

Vindictiveness

8.

Has been spiteful or vindictive at least twice within the past 6 months.

If we ever give up our vendetta against these people or their descendants, or the rival nations that sponsor them, then the Western people will be genocided as a result.

Forgiveness is death, silence is death, compliance is death.

COINTEL families that targeted White Nationalists all get the rope. It's not about removing the individual offender, it's about removing their traitorous bloodline. They aren't members of Western nations anymore, but enemy nations and we can't allow them to live here or any where else, they're a national security risk.

Woe to the nations that participated in soft power campaigns against the Western people.

Since you tried to genocide our nation we are now honor bound to genocide your nation to the last screaming *****.

Retaliation must be commensurate or greater and you tried to take our countries and genocide the Western people, what did you think was going to happen to your nation?

We're going to wipe you all out for it, globally, and take your land.

why are you schizoposting on the music thread?

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P7400
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P7403
Tell me why the hell no one is here
Tell me what to do to make it all feel better
Maybe it's a cruel joke on me
Whatever, whatever
Just means there's way more cake for me
Forever, forever
It's my party and I'll cry if I want to
Cry if I want to (cry, cry, cry)
I'll cry until the candles burn down this place
I'll cry until my pity party's in flames


It's my party and I'll cry if I want to
Cry if I want to (cry, cry, cry)
I'll cry until the candles burn down this place
I'll cry until my pity party's in flames

P6533
Except from visualising uncoscious ideas, I can't see how watching this kind of videos would be healthy. Just a bunch of people (girls?) wallowing and identifying with past stuffering.

Suicide is fine, but there's must be a reason you have't done it yet [spoiler: not (You)]

What "triggers" me are saturated depictions of happiness. The common depictions of "decay" (both from places and/or the mind) are actually beautiful, or at least interesting.

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>I can't see how watching this kind of videos would be healthy. Just a bunch of people (girls?) wallowing and identifying with past stuffering.
It's not. These videos are cathartic, at least for me.
It's a way to express whatever that is indescribable that's going on in broken heads.

>Suicide is fine, but there's must be a reason you have't done it yet [spoiler: not (You)]
There are 3 ways to kill yourself.
Wait, there are actually infinite ways to kill yourself.
The 3 ways I'm talking about is: physically, mentally, and socially.
Physical suicide is well, duh, physical. You decay and rot.
Mental suicide is when you are only physically present in a situation or a place or a relationship. You're a ghost. You say yes to everything. You take everything that is thrown at you, like a wife or a girlfriend. It can be taken to extremes by creating a world for yourself that exists just in your head, or bingewatching on One Piece till you die.
Social suicide is becoming a hikikomori.

>The common depictions of "decay" (both from places and/or the mind) are actually beautiful, or at least interesting.
Just like the rotten souls that enjoy it.

The two ways that aren't physical give space to a potential reaction, a possible unconscious desire to get back to living (or that other people would try to push you back on living). And don't say that it die too, surviving is our primitive base.

Also, the second option sounds like too much work.

The concept of "living" is so fragile. If you reorganize yourself just a little bit you "die". In fact, huge ammounts of "you" are dying all the time. You are only "living" now because past you haven't been reorganized enough to be considered dead.

P26739 I only die when I have to...

>Suicide is fine, but there's must be a reason you have't done it yet
yea its true
i think the biggest reason is just that suicide is a pain in the ass to pull off
and the second is that life is mostly shitty, but it has a lot of little things that keep you hooked on it
like rn im playing a really cool game, and i wouldnt wanna die before getting bored of it
>The common depictions of "decay" (both from places and/or the mind) are actually beautiful, or at least interesting.
yea im actually more attracted to that sort of thing too
like, i prefer a based grim story instead of cringe idealistic bullshit

>It's a way to express whatever that is indescribable that's going on in broken heads.
the curse of every artist lol
and yes, very cathartic
when you have no way to express yourself, you are left only with allegorical things like that
>There are 3 ways to kill yourself.
haha im very close to achieving mental and social death at this point
physical death will come right after those 2

>If you reorganize yourself just a little bit you "die". In fact, huge ammounts of "you" are dying all the time.
yea lol just look at the number of time denpa has died

>i think the biggest reason is just that suicide is a pain in the ass to pull off
I'm sure people would still have plenty of difficulty doing even in a scenario were there's options for assisted suicide, or that you could just flip a switch on your brain an die. The prospect of death is too final.
Hell, there's people that even hesitate to sleep, which is kinda soft death. Or things that damages their ideals/ego.

>but it has a lot of little things that keep you hooked on it
Yeah, for me is listening to music, so I won't ever be short on supply lel. I just need to download more Nujabes albums, or OSTs of whatever I watch

>like rn im playing a really cool game
Ah yes, exploiting the human tendency to liking progress and challenge.
I don't play games anymore, so I kinda try to channel this on life. The problem is that humans made the game of life a boring piece of shit, even when it could be much better. To many "obligatory" shit to do, liking having a job or taking care of your family (and upholding their values even while they are away/dead), also too many de-buffs (class, race, inherented characteristics).
At this point, I would much rather be a peasant that lives till I'm 30 then being a aware and "free" human that "has" to do so many useless, meaningless crap.

>physical death will come right after those 2
Why are you looking forward to death?

I try to deny suffering, you assimilate it into yourself... None of those two are right.
All the solutions I found while researching this suffering dillema are "becoming enlightened"/"ascending to godhood", which is not only aknowledging that this is a false reality, but experiencing, going through ego death and embracing all suffering. You do that by meditating a long time under a tree, merging with the machine like in Ghost In the Shell and SEL, or doing whatever Jesus did.
Or wait until we can transfer the mind something that doesn't have a body through the use of technology, being able to "percieve the truth without the deffects of a body making a feedback loop".

Or you could kill yourself, but that would be pretty bad if (a) G/god exists, or if eternal recurrence exists, or even just with we have a S*****-2718 situation going on (warning, pretty bad irl cognitohazard, at least it was for me)

>merging with the machine like in Ghost In the Shell and SEL
Oh, and also Deus Ex.
Also, I know that the point of SEL was against the merging, arguing that having a body is important for the human experience. But ig that just applies to ascending without the work, with the aid of technology, just like in Texhnolyze, NOiSE, the end of Evangelion [spoiler: and the latest chapters of Shimeji Simulation].

Although, if I was to come to enlightenment, I would want everybody else to experience, but instead of just giving it to the people, I would make sure they have training wheels first [spoiler: kinda like Shimeji Simulation again lel], having to go through all the work for being able to handle it. And also giving the option to people to not get enlightened (although that would lead to segregation, but eh, you win some you loose some).

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>like rn im playing a really cool game, and i wouldnt wanna die before getting bored of it
Problems don't exist if you don't think about to it.
Videogames!
It's that simple!
>haha im very close to achieving mental and social death at this point
I already did.
Catch up!

>yea lol just look at the number of time denpa has died
What the ***** is a denpa and why won't he stay dead?

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>I'm sure people would still have plenty of difficulty doing even in a scenario were there's options for assisted suicide, or that you could just flip a switch on your brain an die.
bruh idk
if i was in one of my moods id actually just *****ing do it if it was that easy
>there's people that even hesitate to sleep
dafuq?
>Or things that damages their ideals/ego.
wheels in the head
>for me is listening to music
cringe
i hate music
i dont understand how anyone can enjoy noise droning in their ears 24/7
i mean, i understand music being used in parties bc they do set the mood, i dont deny that music has a big influence in human emotion
same for music in games and movies, etc
im talking about the sort of ***** that will have music playing at all times for no reason
just for background noise
like they cant stand a moment of silence
i cannot bear hearing music when im just chilling and minding my own business
like i dont listen to music when im writing or programming bc at best i wont pay attention to it, so its pointless, and at worst it will actively steal my focus from what im doing, so its detrimental
so ***** music and music junkies, especially the obnoxious ones that dont use headphones
>The problem is that humans made the game of life a boring piece of shit
uncle ted said it best
>I would much rather be a peasant
i wish i was a pinetree
pinetrees just dont give a shit
like, at all
>Why are you looking forward to death?
thats when the misery will end
>I try to deny suffering, you assimilate it into yourself... None of those two are right.
what is the "right" then, socrates?
cucking out and just pretending suffering is no biggie?
denying it wont change the fact you still gonna suffer your whole life, so get bent
the optimal choice is to go full masochist and at least try to enjoy all the pain that is in store for you
>You do that by meditating a long time under a tree
i aint got time for gay shit like that
i got zombies to kill and catgirls to mutate
>Or wait until we can transfer the mind something that doesn't have a body through the use of technology
ah yes
im soooooo looking forward to have my very mind backdoored my elon musk
>Or you could kill yourself
i sure could
>warning, pretty bad irl cognitohazard, at least it was for me
pretty meh horror story
4/10

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>Problems don't exist if you don't think about to it.
exactly
its the same reason i dont go to the doctor
you arent sick without a diagnosis
>What the ***** is a denpa and why won't he stay dead?
nanoscholars have tried to answer this question for years and it led to their ultimate demise

>if i was in one of my moods id actually just *****ing do it if it was that easy
As same for every suicide victim.

>i wish i was a pinetree
most basic bitch tree, pieces of shit sucking all the water from the soil.

>thats when the misery will end
And any potential to hapiness. Ig it's a fair tradeoff for you, and maybe I'm too delusional to see it as a fair tradeoff for me.
But is a game and some other shit ass pleasures all that stand between you and death?

>what is the "right" then, socrates?
I proposed assencion, but it's basically irl fanfic, and I wouldn't expect you understand it.

>denying it wont change the fact you still gonna suffer your whole life, so get bente
False dychotomy.

omgggg, life is suffering!!! Die then. I tell this to you, as I tell this to me.

>im soooooo looking forward to have my very mind backdoored my elon musk
What would be the advantage to backdoring a human mind when it doesn't have a body to nurture anymore? It would be pretty difficult to advertise something to a floating consciousness.

>pretty meh horror story
well, S*****s don't really have top tier horror stories, what scares me is the concept that [spoiler: "belief is key", what you believe will happen after you die happens, but if you know that, you are doomed to the suffering described].

>you arent sick without a diagnosis
Can diagnosis make someone sicker? Like, trying to pathologise every aspect of their life? Like a consciousness trapped inside a robot that acts due to forces that it can't control? that seems familiar.

>won't he stay dead?
Simply, there's people that still remember it, especially the one that that came up with it in the first place.

>As same for every suicide victim.
>(((victim)))

>most basic bitch tree
the pinetree does care
the pinetree only knows boundless bliss

>And any potential to hapiness.
lol the potential is p low anyway, so who cares
its like saving 5 bucks when deciding not play the lottery
<b-but you are losing the 1 in 1000000000000000000000000000000000000 potential of w-winning!
>But is a game and some other shit ass pleasures all that stand between you and death?
pretty much yea
for now i can still sustain the hikki lifestyle to a comfortable degree
but if i were to be forced to wage for the majority of my waking hours, id probably just off myself
at that stage there is no more point in going through the daily pain in the ass that is being alive
>Ig it's a fair tradeoff for you, and maybe I'm too delusional to see it as a fair tradeoff for me.
ig it depends on how much hope you have that things can get better
i have none
in fact, i only expect them to get worse

>life is suffering!!! Die then
ok i will [spoiler: some day]

>What would be the advantage to backdoring a human mind when it doesn't have a body to nurture anymore?
good question
here is a better one
what would be the point of putting your brain in a jar?

>spoiler
so if i watch enough isekai braindamage, i will respawn as a gay little anime girl when i die?

>>(((victim)))
Yeah, I only use the term because it's the most common one. Although, I don't see how a primate would naturally push itself to suicide, making it take the blame.

>lol the potential is p low anyway, so who cares
You seem to be warping reality a bit. It isn't that difficult. Case in point, something simple as a game can give you pleasure, and there's plenty to go through.

>at that stage there is no more point in going through the daily pain in the ass that is being alive
True... I still delude myself that I could possibly dodge it, or that I could extract some greater good from it. I'm aware of my possible delusions though, so you can let me off the hook.

>ig it depends on how much hope you have that things can get better
Yeah, ig I have a unconscious hope that things will get better.

>in fact, i only expect them to get worse
Genuine question: Is that something yout truly believe in, or is it a "spook", or "cope"?

>what would be the point of putting your brain in a jar?
Didn't I said it before? Giving that the brain would be still alive and functioning, and that it isn't really confined to the jar, to perceive the truth and seak what it truly wants without the body getting in the way. By that I mean, getting rid of hunger, instinct, suffering, lust, things like that.

>so if i watch enough isekai braindamage, i will respawn as a gay little anime girl when i die?
You would have to truly believe it, but now that you know, that won't be possible. You are now doomed.

>I only use the term because it's the most common one.
ok npc
>I don't see how a primate would naturally push itself to suicide, making it take the blame.
when life is too shit
its brain does a simple expect value calculation of being alive
it turns out being alive sucks
so it commits sudoku
>something simple as a game can give you pleasure
but for how long?
i already went through a phase when i didnt wanna play anything and was bored all the time
im just relapsing now
it might happen again and who knows if i will have anything else left to tether me to life then
>I still delude myself
thats a basic necessity to stay alive ig
at any given moment, life sucks
but its the (false) prospective of a better future that keeps ppl going, is it not?
>Is that something yout truly believe in, or is it a "spook", or "cope"?
yes, duh
itd be cope if i intentionally deluded myself into believing something i have no concrete reason to believe in
like you
and the real spook is thinking that life is worth living just bc is are constantly told that, while your actual experiences tell you otherwise
>to perceive the truth and seak what it truly wants without the body getting in the way
and what the ***** does it "truly want"?
and before you say "intellectual pursuit", or "enlightenment" or any other similar faggotry, let me tell you that those ideas are just spooks implanted in your mind by the powers that be to encourage you to be a productive member of society and keep the machine running
our civilization has heroes like great scientists such as einstain and newton bc their studies were of great importance to develop technology, the foundation of our industrial society
so in the off chance that someone with the right set of circumstances to be like them is born, those ideals of seeking "truth" and "greater purpose" are brainwashed into *****ren's impressionable minds from a ***** age, so that a few of them can grow up to become distinguished researchers to help give even more power to the system that created them
and now here comes you spouting this same bullshit as a reason to completely destroy the humanity of ppl by turning them into disembodied peanuts
cringe
>By that I mean, getting rid of hunger, instinct, suffering, lust, things like that.
and what would be the point of preserving the brain, then?
you know, after removing all the memes that are forced on you as a kid, the function of the thinking part of the brain is to solve the very complex problem of "how do i keep my body from dying" so it can achieve its singular master purpose of "i must find one [spoiler: or multiple] bitch to knock up and birth my offspring"
thats it
there is no higher calling, or special purpose, or anything
natural selection ensures that anything that lives has the singular purpose of replicating itself
you know why? bc those who dont simply die without leaving *****ren to grow to become other non-replicating retards
the problem with the human brain is the same with modern software, really
its gotten so complex that its true purpose is blurred and lost among the several layers of bloat
do you think a pinetree overthinks whether or not it should create pinecones?
it just *****ing does it
and all the bloat of the human brain leaves it vulnerable not to bad genes, but to bad memes
such as the meme that reproduction is secondary to being a slave to your overlords
now knowing that, answer me this: how the ***** are you gonna reproduce when you cut off your not only your dick, but your entire body?
are you gonna create several clones of yourself in the iEarth?
and for what?
i know reproduction irl is just as pointless [spoiler: whats the point of having *****ren just so they can have more *****ren?], but at least it is accidental pointlessness
just a thing that was created due to the way to universe works
recreating the same pointlessness on purpose would be infinitely more retarded
you need a lot of braindamage to think thats in any way shape or form an improvement to the human mind
transhumanism? more like dehumanism
>You would have to truly believe it
but i do believe there is a world full of horny animegirls waiting for me in the afterlife
>but now that you know, that won't be possible
<implying i actually believed any of that garbage
>You are now doomed.
write a better creepypasta and i maybe i will be
why would i believe a fake and gay story i read in a fake and gay wiki instead of a gay little story i watched in a gay little anime?
they are both equally worthless to me

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Step -1: Don't ask any questions.
Step 0: Stop avatarfagging with Ed.
Step 1: Watch Arcane.
Step 2: Avatarfag as this guy.
Silco, you force him to as well.

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>i dont understand how anyone can enjoy noise droning in their ears 24/7
Better music than an imp voice that is tempting you to do vile things.
>like they cant stand a moment of silence
They just can't stand their own voices.

>just for background noise
It's actually impressive. It's supposed to be attention training or something that I wanna give a try some time in future.
I can't focus on what I'm doing when I listen to music or have a song that's running in my head the whole day.

>its brain does a simple expect value calculation of being alive
With very very real values, not biased at all.

>but for how long?
That wasn't the point. The point is that sometimes small/irrelevant/stupid things bring pleasure, that goes against the comparison you made of getting pleasure = winning lotery.

>at any given moment, life sucks
>any
false

>but its the (false) prospective of a better future that keeps ppl going, is it not?
The majority of time, yes. But sometimes there's bliss in the moment.

>itd be cope if i intentionally deluded myself into believing something i have no concrete reason to believe in
No offense, but it seems like you are intentionally deluding yourself that life is inherently shit, which sounds like a cope to continue to live miserably.
It's a sentiment I'm very familiar with. [spoiler: inb4 projecting]

>like you
I have my reasons to believe what I believe. If I didn't, I wouldn't be offering opposition to your points.

>and the real spook is thinking that life is worth living just bc is are constantly told that
I'm not going to say I'm immune to propaganda, but I tend to disregard the opinion of the majority when it comes to "life" issues. Case in point, I'm fine with suicide, and I'm more fine than most with executions/murder.

>while your actual experiences tell you otherwise
My current experiences in a span of some weeks tell me life is shit, but taking my entire life into account, that is not the case, as I've been plenty of happy before, and I see the potential not only to be happier in the future, but to also just generally reduce my suffering.
On top of all that, I'm aware of the potential delusional nature of those ideas, but my way of living supports my ideas.
If you supported your ideas of life, you would be dead. Why aren't you?

>seeking truth and greater purpose is a spook
Whatever you say. I believe those aspects are inherent to modern humans. But you can call it a spook all you want.

>as a reason to completely destroy the humanity of ppl by turning them into disembodied peanuts
I never said that is what should be done, or that I wanted that, or that was "right". I just answered your questions about why would someone would do that.

>how the ***** are you gonna reproduce when you cut off your not only your dick, but your entire body?
That is a rhetorical question, but for fun I could say that you could make complete copies of your own consciousness with slight quirks that makes them distinguishable from you.

>transhumanism? more like dehumanism
Correct.
Putting your brain into a jar isn't exactly the way to go.
Also, arguing something being more or less "human" isn't very productive. I could argue that suicidal thoughts, being a hikki, refusing to socialise, reproduce and contribute is also less human, that doesn't make it less valid.

><implying i actually believed any of that garbage
You don't have to believe, you just have to know.

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>LoL
lol

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>lol
Suit yourself.

>With very very real values, not biased at all.
every calculation of subjective values in the real world is biased in some way
case in point: your optimistic ass
>The point is that sometimes small/irrelevant/stupid things bring pleasure
more like dull the pain tbh
i wouldnt live just for cringe shit like that
i actually some resemblance of a reason not to die rn, but it has already started to crack and all i can do is watch it slowly fall apart before my eyes
lately i have been coping hard with games
just to turn off the brain
avoid thinking about things
i remember when i used to play bc i genuinely enjoyed gaming all day
now i cant properly enjoy anything anymore
>getting pleasure = winning lotery
i meant real pleasure
things that make life feel worth living
things that make me think "damn, i sure am glad i was born" instead of merely "eh, ig im not gonna be killing myself this week"
i dont even remember the last time i felt truly grateful for the gift of life
>false
ig saying "any given" was exaggerated
but most of the time it does suck hairy donkey balls
>But sometimes there's bliss in the moment.
very rarely, yes
i had a nice dream today
i woke up feeling somewhat happy
the feeling didnt last
isnt it funny how the one thing that made me feel happy in a while wasnt even real to begin with?
>which sounds like a cope to continue to live miserably
well, ig its easier to deal with a shitty situation by thinking that this is just how things are, instead of thinking that my life is especially shit
i prefer to imagine that suffering is an integral part of life, bc if it isnt, im just gonna be offing myself
i dont wanna be the one sucker that is having a bad time while everybody else is happy
>I have my reasons to believe what I believe.
cite one
>I'm fine with suicide, and I'm more fine than most with executions/murder.
basado y rojopilado
>life is shit, but taking my entire life into account, that is not the case
now take *****hood out of the equation and suddenly life is even worse than shit
you are never gonna be as happy as you were as a *****, you are already too damaged for that
>If you supported your ideas of life, you would be dead. Why aren't you?
im too healthy for my own good
on the times i did truly life-threatening shit, i lived it through with sheer force of spite
they say the human is fragile and shit
<oooh how easy it is to die, we could die today for all we know, life is so fleeting yada yada yada
what a load of bullshit
unless you are hit with pin point precision, chances are, your body can recover
i have seen enough ***** videos to know just how resilient ppl can be
i once saw a video of a dude with his chest torn open, heart exposed and visibly pumping, one lung also visibly filling and emptying
and he was still conscious and moving
i wish i was the sort of faggot that can literally die by simply not paying attention to the list of ingredients of the things he buys at the grocery store
why cant i have shitty genes where it counts?
>I believe those aspects are inherent to modern humans.
>(((modern))) humans
>you can call it a spook all you want
and i will
spook
spooky spookery spook
>that doesn't make it less valid
>valid
miss me with your fagspeak
>You don't have to believe, you just have to know.
and why is one afterlife fated after merely knowing about it, but not the other?
idk i feel like we are talking about different creepypastas
S*****-2718 never says that you need to know about it for it to happen
its just what happens when you die
the guy himself that revealed it said that he expected something completely different after he died
and yet he still got infinite suffering

>case in point: your optimistic ass
There's plenty of hard data that would make me biased to be pessimistic, and that isn't the case. How?

>i wouldnt live just for cringe shit like that
Yet. here. you. are.

>i meant real pleasure
>things that make life feel worth living
Some people find reasons to live in plenty of small stupid things. There's plenty of lean room, and I don't really think it's something intrinsic.

>isnt it funny how the one thing that made me feel happy in a while wasnt even real to begin with?
yeah, although when I wake up of such dreams I feel nothing but dread and sorrow. Usually because my dreams are never believable, but when something convinces me to be happy and I wake up it's like a punch in the gut.

>i dont wanna be the one sucker that is having a bad time while everybody else is happy
Well, me and you know for a fact that there are plenty of other people suffering. Comming about the knowledge that life isn't suffering would get you distraught for torturing yourself for so long, but wouldn't that fill you with determination to make your life better?

>cite one
oh no, they would be spooks, thus invalid.

>now take *****hood out of the equation
that would be stupid. If I removed *****hood from the equation I would be going by just around 5 years of data.

>you are never gonna be as happy as you were as a *****, you are already too damaged for that
>you you
stop spooking meeee!!!

>i have seen enough ***** videos to know just how resilient ppl can be
until the adrenaline runs out and sepsis takes in.

>S*****-2718 never says that you need to know about it for it to happen
Yeah... except this part kinda
> Oh! Is belief the key? I —

If it was simply a fact of the afterlife, it would be a normal entry, not a numbered entry tagged as a cognitohazard (infohazard to be precise).

It's up to interpretation ig

>the guy himself that revealed it said that he expected something completely different after he died
>and yet he still got infinite suffering
It's also theorized that this only happened to him due to the artifact and key the O5 bound to his soul. This generated an anomaly, cognitohazard, that was spread by the woman making the entry.

P27852
You know, even with the effects of the pandemic, most humans are at least pretty happy.

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>There's plenty of hard data that would make me biased to be pessimistic, and that isn't the case. How?
idk
brazilians always seemed pathologically happy to me anyway
do they put something in your water?
>Yet. here. you. are.
brb im kysing myself to prove a point to some internet faggot
>[bold: Some] people find reasons to live in plenty of small stupid things.
well, good for them
hope they die alone and slowly
>Usually because my dreams are never believable, but when something convinces me to be happy and I wake up it's like a punch in the gut.
today i dreamt i was hanging out with the friends i lost
woke up feeling cozy, but yea then it sinks in that im never gonna have that again
>but wouldn't that [bold: fill you with determination] to make your life better?
cringe
no
also i have tried the "make your life better" meme and it didnt work
it looks like it works, but it still gets worse over time
like a spiky graphic where my happiness goes up and down over time, but the general trend is clearly downwards
but thats despite my attempts, i dont think they actually do anything
>oh no, they would be spooks, thus invalid.
good
self-awareness and admission are the first steps of recovery for a spook junkie
>that would be stupid. If I removed *****hood from the equation I would be going by just around 5 years of data.
no, youre stupid
by removing *****hood you are working with more meaningful data to predict the future
like i said, innocent *****ish happiness is something that you are NEVER going to experience again
so taking it into account when trying to estimate how good your life can get is retarded
that ship has sailed
>5 years of data
isnt it kinda sad that your life just begun and its already over?
absolute state of this gay earth
>stop spooking meeee!!!
...ok
[spoiler: aaa BOOOOOOO! mwahahaha]
>If it was simply a fact of the afterlife
it is not
it is the realization that the afterlife is pure eternal suffering
thatd drive anyone mad
why do you think the guy decided to confess to the entire O5 body instead of keeping it to himself and sparing others?
bc it doesnt matter if you know it or not
so might as well tell everyone to get the help
the reason they decided to erase everyone's minds was bc there is nothing they could do about it, so knowing about it would only drive ppl to make retarded decisions out of desperations
so no, it could not be a normal entry
the guy himself broke several rules trying to figure out a cure for death, and still failed, being an O5
and he was the singular instance of someone being truly brought back from the dead, with memories and everything (probably thanks to some O5 *****ery)
not creating a clone, or rescuing an earlier-time version
actual resurrection
so who know if those other methods also count
maybe the "true" consciousness is still dead and experiencing infinite suffering, while the simulacrum carries on with its jolly business
>It's up to interpretation ig
yea but you cant argue that yours is wrong and mine is right, so...

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take a better look at the graphic, dumbass
there is a huge drop on "very happy", so ofc the other 2 would rise
in fact, now "very happy" has the lowest amount of ppl
truly a time to be dead

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>, dumbass
At least I know what at least" means, eh?

>brazilians always seemed pathologically happy to me anyway
optimistic != happy. Case in point, me (in this specific instance).

>cringe
Pardon the undertale intrusive thoughts. So, if you knew for a fact that life is overall good, and there really isn't anything keeping you from being happy, you would still be miserable?
That's a hypothetic though... I know you would disarm that thought instantly.

>like i said, innocent *****ish happiness is something that you are NEVER going to experience again
Being *****d without any means of ego protection is something I'll never experience either... nor loosing my friends, nor loosing members of my family, nor seeing people die. What's your point?

Ig *****hood whimsy and trauma cancel each other out... still, erasing 15 years of data sounds stupid because those 15 years highly influence parts of my psyche, which in turn acts uppon the" predictable" future.

>so taking it into account when trying to estimate how good your life can get is retarded
I'm pretty sure there was some stuff that would make anyone happy, independent if they are retarded or not... to bad I don't have that great of a memory.

>isnt it kinda sad that your life just begun and its already over?
Nah, still 60+ years before I clock out. I can leave at any moment though.

>yea but you cant argue that yours is wrong and mine is right, so...
Arguing with you with things like this is impossible. May I remind you of the robogf altercation? Besides, I'm most probably too stupid for that.

>if you knew for a fact that life is overall good, and there really isn't anything keeping you from being happy, you would still be miserable?
no, thatd be gay
but life isnt like that, is it?
there is always something keeping happiness just 1 foot away
like a carrot in a stick, always just outside your reach
>What's your point?
my point is that *****hood is the peak of your life and from there its all downhill
>I'm pretty sure there was some stuff that would make anyone happy, independent if they are retarded or not...
seggs?
>Arguing with you with things like this is impossible.
yea bc you have no conviction and just a little bit of stubbornness is enough to discourage you
>May I remind you of the robogf altercation?
tf is that
>Besides, I'm most probably too stupid for that.
nah, you are of regular stupidity
the problem is that you are just too wrong

>my point is that *****hood is the peak of your life and from there its all downhill
I'll have to hope that isn't true.

>seggs?
miss me with that shit.

>yea bc you have no conviction
ouch... but true. I like to faggly call myself ambivalent.

>and just a little bit of stubbornness is enough to discourage you
Dealing with someone like my mother all your life would also discourage you from discussing with stubborn people. Also, there's a bit of projection in my part, since tend to take things in face value (due to simplicity) and am kinda easy to convince, or at least to make me understand your prespective, so when I find someone that is quite the opposite of that I don't tryhard.

>tf is that
you were arguing that if you got a robogf, and it was "test-driven" out of the factory, then you would be a cuck. I was arguing against that, and innevitably lost... and learnt my lesson.

>the problem is that you are just too wrong
too wrong on subjective matters... whatever, it doesn't mean anything anyways.

>I'll have to hope that isn't true.
>hope
then its already over
>miss me with that shit
amirite?
***** with women, ugh
thats for faggots
>if you got a robogf, and it was "test-driven" out of the factory, then you would be a cuck
wtf kinda retarded logic is that?
obviously in every factory theyd only test a few models to make sure the production pipeline is working fine
so youd need to be very unlucky to get an used goo- wait a minute, i dont think they could legally sell you used goods
and they cant even ***** every mass produced *****bot to begin with
so youre good
well, unless they have automatic dildos for that, but masturbation doesnt count as cucking
at least not when she isnt thinking about anyone, and machines cant think, so youre still good
>I was arguing against that, and innevitably lost...
imagine being right and losing
wtf is wrong with you
this is what happens when you are spineless

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>retarded logic
I said something along those lines, but you(?) were arguing the opposite, that it was cuckish. I said that they would only test one, and then make clones, and that the fact that the og was tested wouldn't affect all the other ones. Then we started some stupid mental gymnastics about present being and I gave up... I didn't exactly loose, but you(?) got the last word.

>this is what happens when you are spineless
Hm... maybe that's a big thing in my psyche, I try to be the opposite of my mother. Talking to her is equivalent of discussing to a conservative 80yo *****, so I try to be the opposite of that, and in turn I'm a spineless cuck that tries to synthesise everything in my head, no wonder I'm so lost in life.

>I said something along those lines, but you(?) were arguing the opposite, that it was cuckish. I said that they would only test one, and then make clones, and that the fact that the og was tested wouldn't affect all the other ones.
none of that makes any *****ing sense
wtf are you babbling about?
>I didn't exactly loose, but you(?) got the last word.
in internet fights, that means you lost

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P10379
I'm probably just fumbling identities... it doesn't matter anyways.

>in internet fights, that means you lost
I know, but it didn't feel like I lost... I generally admit defeat/outright agree when I loose.

P28142 >I'm probably just fumbling identities

You shouldn't have licked that spilled tea! Now you are tripped! Were you at Dye4you's?

>it didn't feel like I lost
>...
watch?v=6SQ8WKc9NDc

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P7400
This is just plain horrifying. They will literally mentally lobotomize you if you dare to oppose them. Can anyone remind me when did I sign up for this social contract?

Read "Industrial Society and Its Future" by Theodore Kaczynski, multiple similar things would apply to our curent times, so read it and think, plan, prepare, SSSH (Stop-Smell-See-Hear) when required and march victoriously towards your goals you kunt, now return to monke, watch PNW Guerilla on yt or smth, be smart

Depression is great! ***** joy, ***** happiness. The shittier your life is, the more satisfied God is about you.